Overwhelmed.

I know that there is usually a 'theme' or a 'topic' for the blogs that we are supposed to write. I didn't want to have one today. I just need to vent about some things, and I thought this might be an okay place to do so.

I am officially overwhelmed. This semester has proven to be much more challenging than the semesters before it. I am striving to balance school and work. I give credit to my fellow students who are able to balance school, work, and family. If I had children or other responsibilities to tend to, I don't know that anything would get achieved.

It seems I rarely have the time I want to have to devote to my studies. I constantly feel like I'm playing 'catch up' in my courses, even though I'm handing in the work on time. My GPA isn't where I wanted it to be - not that it's terrible, but I've done better.

This week my goal is to truly focus on my studies when I'm not at work. I will devote every moment of my time at home to my work until it has all been achieved.

I was a lot more spoiled than I thought last semester when I wasn't working. School seemed 'easy' and without much challenge, but I was spending upwards of 7 hours a day on homework. Now, when time is limited, I find myself constantly under a ridiculous amount of stress. Hopefully this week things will change. I will not procrastinate, I will put off my chores and whatnot, I will do the best I can with the time allotted.

A week from now-ish I'll have a new laptop. Hopefully I'll be able to spend less time on the phone with technical support representatives, less time looking for files, and more time just focusing on what needs to be done. You'd be surprised how much a screwy computer really zaps time away from your studies! Especially when all your courses are online, and you're 200 miles away from campus!